Sadly it is not uncommon to be bullied for no real reason. I was to. I just stopped trusting anyone and kept to myself. Which didn't make things better but I'm not going to get into that. Bullies can grow all they want chances are they won't even remember how cruel they were in school.
My bullying problems lasted up to junior high school. Once I got into high school proper, it seemed to stop. I suspect it was due to the nature of the specific establishment rather than the nature of high school in general, or any change in me.
Sadly it wasn't until recently I even noticed how bad bullying was. I feel like it was a failing on my part, but I always Saw or read things on tv or books that showed these ideas about bullying that I always though was either over the top exaggeration or rare case.
Then I started making friends with people I didn't grow up with or go to high school with and slowly realized that, fuck kids are cruel, and for no real reason at all.
Then the other day I stopped and just tried to examine what made me different, why I didn't get bullied when I was a kid, as far as popularity went I have been every where, from the strait-A top of the class, to the popular kid that everyone wanted to be friends with, to the quite sit in the corner and read, the flunky that can't make a grade, and every where in between.
As I looked at it, I realized, it was there, all through out my life, and it was mostly just my obliviousness that shielded me from it. It doesn't matter really who you are, you probably have been bullied, and have been the bully.
Even when I didn't realized it, I can now see places where it subconsciously cropped up, like my old hatred of the color pink, or fervent dislike of wearing dresses, ever.
I think, it is just people in general though, our inability to actually know how to interact with each other, the fact that we are all so different, so hard to predict, and it is even worse at young ages, because we don't even know ourselves. Everyone is a victim and everyone is a bully to some extent, and I like how you display it in your characters. That utter lack of black and white. Hell not even shades of gray but an array of complex colors and textures. We are all human, no matter where we are in life, we hurt, we lash out, we hide, no one is immune and it shapes us.
Well, yes. But there's a pretty wide range in those shades.
I mean, there's a difference between saying something cruel and two older kids grabbing someone half their size by the legs and saying "let's make a wish" prior to pulling in opposite directions (something I once observed, though fortunately I was not any of the individuals involved in that incident on either side).
Also a bully target to a degree. I was definitely the "weird" kid, and I had huge issues controlling my anger so sometimes I was pitted on to get a rise out of me. It never stopped me from doing whatever I wanted though. I feel like my experiences with being picked on were considerably tame compared to what I read and hear about today.
All bullies have a reason for being bullies. Whether it is growing up in a tough spot, parental issues, being bullied themselves, deaths in the family, anger issues etc. Very close to where I lived, there was a kid that got stabbed to death by his mob-victim. It's incredible how it all ends up in a big bad circle. I think that's why I like your story so much, it gives a look into the other side.
Meh... Maybe it's because I was bullied, too, but I often don't find the reasoning behind being a bully to be a good "excuse." Doesn't matter if your home situation is tough, it never gives you the right to take it out on others.
So many people do it, and when we let them use their problems as an excuse for that behavior, they never stop bullying. I've seen it too many times...
That somewhat personal rant aside, I like Amber. I can see she's got a good heart, it just seems like she's grown up spoiled. Once she experiences some hard times, I'm betting she'll blossom into a lovely character.
one of my favourite authors once said "being bullied means you're special, so if you're bullied it means you'll become something." those words of encouragement needs to be heard by those who get bullied for not fitting in to the standards of society for whatever reason. Because once you hear them, they become the core of integrity that helps you be true to yourself despite everything, at least that's how it was for me.
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Woah, that's actually pretty cool that there's a backstory here! Not that it's cool that people fucked around with you (I WOULD HAVE BEAT THEM UP FOR YOU, BB), but when a writer has a personal insight into something and that you're writing it from both sides of the equation.
I was never bullied because I was mean as fuck as a kid and there were much easier targets 8I